||[Apr. 28th, 2007|07:01 pm]
i feel silly bloggin out my problems. its like im whining and moaning over dumb shit that doesnt really matter. like other people have extremely way bigger issues than me and that mine are just not important. usually i dont worry about the way certain things are gonna turn out i just sit back let time tell it all and i know thats what im gonna end up doin but i guess right now what im feeling is anticipation. im just overly eager to see if me and this boy are gonna have somethin special together. a real and true relationship. i try to talk to him and all that but i feel like i'm just trying to hard, then i tell myself ima just let him call me, message me, or whatever but i just cant hold back. |
my surgery date is set for May 10. im getting my left shoulder done. im scared.
i dont think ill be doin much this summer because i have to get my right one done too. so i dont know if i can do that summer program...just feelin down now because of that. im lonely again. nobody to talk to. i usually play my video games but ive been stuck on one part for 2 weeks and its makin even more depressed.
"and you know the rain..dont last forever."